the ending of forever

i really never knew the day would come when we wouldnt be friends

i would always say it was me and you forever

and it seems like it was all wrong now

3 years but it feels like a lifetime

you and i were joined at the hip, twins

we understood eachother, loved eachother, and care for one another

i mean i see people and they ask me “hey wheres yr friend”

and i dont even know what to say because, where are you Ta?

ill never understand you, or why this had to happen, or why you let it

man i mean its crazy spending every day with eachother, to just being another face in the hall

you were my sister, my ride or die, my crazy ass friend

i mean i dont regret any of the time spent with you

i just wish i wouldnt of had to learn so much from it

whyd you have to do this to me ta

whyd you have to leave me feeling like this, all ive ever done is been a good ass friend

sure i would be mean sometimes

but i did it because i love you.

ill always remember the night of the party when i made you leave and slapped you so damn hard for making bad choices.

you were my little sis, my gordita, 

i looked out for you no matter what man ..

all i wanted to do was give you the kind of love and protection that i wish someone wouldve given me Ta

i wanted you to have goals, do good in school, love God, have different views on life, experience a whole different part of life.

i wanted for it to be us against the world 

i remember when i was sad, or everything was going wrong, i felt like i HAD to be with you at that second, and if i was, everything was okay again.

i loved you because you saw me as the person that i wish people would see me as, but you really didnt.

because if you did you wouldnt of gone along with everything you wouldve defended me without fear 

just like i always did

slowly ta you were ruining our friendship

losing trust

lies

not caring

Tania im never gonna forget the feeling of having a bond with a person like i had one with you .

its like my heart would ache when i wouldnt be with you

you took advantage of that tho ta

i did anything just to see you

ta im gonna miss running thru the streets of kc with you at any time of the day

singing

laughing

acting retarted as fuck

not giving a damn fuck

talking about school

love 

god

hope

dreams

the past

the future

talking about it like there would never be a last day

ta im gonna miss when you and i would get ready together not knowing what the night would bring but expecting the best and being pumped

im gonna miss danicing and singing as crazy as i could with you

yelling at the top of my lungs

screaming out the car window

all the advetures we had dude…

the nights wed spend at my house

staying up watching movies, laughing, cuddling ;) lmfao putting shit on our faces that didnt even help our pimples lmfao

getting buzzed off shots ;p

when i took down the bottle and didnt even know how i passed out lmfao

or when we would just be together alone at my shop and make tours and videos and take piks and laugh at the top of our lungs

the night that “jrp” called you lol!!!
we got all wet when it wasnt even shit hahahha i believed it and my mom was like uhmmm excuse me fat ass but it aint real HAHAHAH

omg you were all sad lol but we were all laughing and shit

 ta i would take blame for you, fix yr probs, was always there 24/7 

for you to go and what yu did was so fucked up :(

man i wish u could see what youve done

but its all good homegurl

ill never see you differently

you’ll always be my gorda <3

now its been a good ride … but it’s over …

i love you Tania Esmeralda Ortiz.

(Tania Khloe Bieber)

us till the end.. 

ohzmat:

i have a month to make friends so i can actually have some sort of birthday party for the first time in my life.